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2001-06-07 - 2:00 p.m.

i HATE having to explain my training of ellie to people who arent there every day or dont ehar whats happeneing day to day. and then they expect her to be either perfect or for them to be able to buy her and have it be fine but it isnt it takes TIME and i dont know enough yet and I want to be careful and make her into a good horse for our program rather then have her sold and go away.

like backing up. she wont, i dont know hwo to teach her. she wants to go up. and if i keep doing the same things which produce the same wrong results i am being a bad trainer. i need help and going slower WONT help. nor will reading because i need someone who's seen it done. i would never have tried her if i hadnt done this before.

argh.

and i despise resorting to tack to fix problems. its a cheap false fix. i undertsnad martingales are a godo start but people use them too soon and for too long. a horse SHOULDNT go in a martingale all its life- it negates any dressage really.

same with fancy bits- a harsher bit is manhadling a horse into doing what you want instead of showing them how to do it right. arghhhhh.

yesterday was so much better then the day before- i know she;s a mare and thus mood swing prone I am not worried nor am i hankering after signs of progress nor am i atking thigns to heart. its just other people watching who see one day and think it reflects everything. ti doesnt. every day is a episode in a long rope we're building ... every day extends her memory of how things are done- each day maters much less then the overall idea she has in her head.

ya know?

becuase she has the physical ability now if she can get her mind around working right then she can be a useful being otherwise i honestly expect her to end up a bad place.

and shes too nice to do so.

but its so weird to see the differences between mares and geldings. she doesnt mind being fussed over but she has MOOOODS. oppisate with harvey mostly.

the end.

-bsg-

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