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2001-08-06 - 9:38 p.m.
believe it or not i am beigning to feel better the later in the day it gets.
it helped to talk to bryan.
and it looks like i may actually be getting all three of my future roomates up here saturday night.
i just have a few issues oging through my head such as will i be able to pay for harvey next summer? what level of emotion do i want to engage in with bryan? what job do i want at school if any? what level of emotion am i at? what am i gonna do with the rest of my life? what are my parents gonna do? do i spend enough time paying attention to my pets and lettign them know i care? am i smart or wise? am i behaving myself in ways that will help me let msyelf have what i want? what do i want? or rather- will i let myself have what i want? will i ever admit anything? why arent i brave? why is it so hot this week that i cant ride? shoudl i bring my tent to school?
ok now i;m just being silly.
and why do i apologize so much and overreact to non existant critism? critism is just that- nothing more or less. not talking is bad. complaints are on the whole better then silence. but try not to read so much in thasts not there! relax! i need - no not need- would like and miss bryan.
:P
-bsg-
:P
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I feel so sane because none of this applies to me!
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the end- sorry for such a strnage entry but its really reassuring to hear how normal i am when i;m not one of these people. :) prior mistakes future mistakes
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