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2002-09-23 - 2:10 p.m. issues. sicker. the antibiotics are just making me feel worse. I cried all weekend when I wasnt working. I cleaned my room . (Sure sign of the apocolypse) I must have been kidding myself when I thought I could just make rash declarations of what I NEED and not have an impact. a hurtful impact. I know I suck and that makes it hurt more. To me; he went away while I was tired and sick. To me; I had to do that alone. But then I went and said something because I have a big mouth too big too fat too ugly too insecure to trust too mean too weak too scared Everytime I think I want something I end up guilty and in more pain then when I started, I dont want anything won at those costs. I don't want to be a person who hurts others. Not even by mistake. and if it means I am alone, so be it. More later, Maybe. If I dont do somehting dumb. -bsg- prior mistakes future mistakes
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