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2001-10-08 - 3:05 p.m. last night i had to bleed to sleep. too wired, tired, stressed and scared to rest and i tried expending the energy productively but it wasnt too effective thats what bryan did endorphins and guilt assuaged etc i could sleep this never happened to me before where you can't even try to relax you're so busy thinking in the first person i am still tired, still declaring next monday a mental health day till 4:30 when i have to turn in a paper, a mental health day i dont want to ake alone btw (hint to the man whose mother is insane) yeah that was fun. "Bryan loves you so very much that i have to make you a christmas present" no no no no no no no i have my own family my own dysfunctional family and yes i would like to be with bryan at christmas but i get a say in it and i dont want to get married or cohabitate i am happy ( if tired and stressed ) right now the way things are i dont want to know if it gets better- i dont need anymore i am not allowed to be happier :P i'm too functional for myself as it is and i hope i will feel better soon. because i love bryan. and he isnt happy when i am unhappy. and i would sing him the harvey song if i would sing, but i wont. on the other hand in latin where i am allergic to the classroom i went thourgh 10 tissues today- heavy duty soft ones- such amazing amounts of STUFF coming out of my nose i wonder if its too much built up horniness or tears or something? so anyways sign my notes, or guestbook. please. and distract me from the mindless routine i live through when i wander all over alone and. not related. :) -bsg- prior mistakes future mistakes
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